Keep my secret

bloggie..

can i tell u a secret?

i try to find someone tonight to tell something important..

but no one is there..

bloggie...

does it,bloggie?

though other people sometimes feel this, but, bloggie, I feel this almost everyday~

cause i tend to scare or bore people away..

i know it will mostly be my fault...

will they still be there for me, bloggie?

be my only exception~

bloggie, can i ask u a favour?

if i feel insecure,

please dun comfort me to feel the opposite of what im feeling.

i will just say ur lying and making me feel more inferior than i were..

if i feel insecure,

please dun tell me want i should or need to do..

i already know how to improve my life..

but when i tell u stuff when im insecure,

im telling u that i have tried but still unable to fix my feelings.

if i feel insecure,

can u come n talk to me when im not feeling insecure n ask me what happened?

u just need to listen patiently because as i talk,

i will see what happened n know whats wrong n my mistake..

n know u have cured me :)

if i still feel insecure,

can u stay patiently n talk frequently with me?

i need u in my life than anything in the world..

because i cant make it disappear in a week or two..

but i know its bad...n i tend to break it someday..

thank you, bloggie :)

Regrets~

kwn1 : ktrg satu famili sll kuar mkn skali :)

ak :oh..yeke? mkn same2?

kwn :haah!

ak :cm pelik je..

ak :eh,ape ko ckp ngn ayah or mak ko bile die kol ko tiap2 ari?

kwn2 :mcm2!

ak :ooh...rili?

kwn3 :yey! nk balik umah weekend/cuti ni!

ak :holiday?nk btpe kt umah?

kwn3 :spend time ngn famili la ;)

ak :oh..nk bt aktiviti pe?

kwn4 :kite nk beli sgt2 bnde ni (mhl)

ak :mhl la tuu..ko ade ke duit?

kwn4 :nk try mntk kt abah la..hehe~

ak :oh,boleh ye mntk duit kt ayah?

i want a support system...like everyone else~

but...

we're too busy struggling to survive

we're too hurt by grudges

we're too silenced by assumptions

p/s: Be kind and dont be so quick to judge others. You never know what someone is going through and what battle they are struggling with..never judge me if u dun have a clue what im going true...i hate it~

(sorry..mood emo.tak suke wednesday, cz takde kls.but everyone else does.being alone is dangerous..start to think too much)

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Esok cuti sbb malaysia menang ;)
Isnin ni JPA masuk dlm bank ;)

Nnt nak x-ray kaki y tgh bengkak cm goiter :(
Nnt nak beli charger batt laptop compaq lps current 1 dh rosak :(

Rabu ni re-sit exam :0
mggu2 dpn mgkn p ukm jd manager u team silat :0

New semester wish~

'May happiness be with you now and bless you even more'

"All the best for the new sem. Lets strive our best =)"

-a wish n bfday present from a friend

Last sem was pretty hectic with all the drama like..

not getting my project sent on time, thus failing my studio :(

Impossible passing grade one of my theory subject :/

Bla bla blaaa..

But Alhamdulillah..everything will/have turn out alrite and im now in my (almost) last semester before graduating (wiiiii~ ^_^) I pray that nothing will make it impossible to finish up my degree by next june and graduate with my other friends.

I deeply hope so..

So, wishing all final year peers for smooth sailing till getting the scroll in hand. InsyaAllah~

All da best!!!

New things :D

tapak kt bhgn depan,blkg,tepi dh nk tercabut...n dh lusuh habis. rasenyer since form 5 kot pkai kasut ni. dh brp kali dh gamkan tapak die ..tpi ttp cabut cm sy crite kt post psl jogging kat tasek dulu -_-

my new shoes..brand power.

siap ade extra comfort kt tapak die..buatkn rase boleh terbang lg tinggi bile berlari. woh...hiperbolanyer :P mmbuatkn sy lg bersemangat dn yakin ketike jogging.

yey :D

new buddy u si hitam sy y lonely atas meje.

Panda y cm bola bowling azie bg from china. yey :D

post sekadar nk hilangkn ngantuk tak cukup tido bt projek..huah~

ok..back to the drawings!!

Nobody's Home

dear readers,

having exam tomorrow morning...

will update later.

have so much to tell! :D

but till then, gotta study :P

take care and see you later ;)

n..oh.oh...wish me all da best!!

Z_______z

jz got back from ukm after a week staying there for silat competition, masum. reached here at uia around 9 smthg tonight. here come's my delayed assignment and coming midterm. but i guess ill deal with them tomorrow. so tired right now..

will update my blog soon....dozing off....Zzzz..

masum games 2010 phase 2

salam.

so, the hockey team n other teams have came back from their tournament for the 1st phase of masum games 2010. jz in a few hours me n my silat team will go on our battle~

yesterday, we had our solat hajat n bacaan yassin at fsc after having magrib prayers. the thing that i think was a miracle was that at the very second we started to perform our solat hajat, it rained heavily! it rarely rain during magrib time..it is said that when the rain starts to fall, our prayers are most likely to be granted. amin..amin..amiiinn....

the night before that, we had our training like usually. only that we gathered up after that and the teammates who are seniors sang the cheers (yes...there are more than 1) and i only listened. i never heard even one of em! the funny part is they not only sing, but dance also.. ayooo~ xP oh yaa..that reminds me. our captain will ask us randomly whether we already memorize or not in the bus before departure..huu~

and another thing that is so touching about this last week, everyone was cautious from getting injured. my partner's ankle got injured and everyone kept asking me or her about it..even there's this one night during our practice, i toe got hit by my partner's swinging stick (which was suppose to be a real hit but not pretend only) twice! the loud sound of the hit made everyone came to me and ask if my toe was okay..hohooo~ ;')

k..gtg~

Di mane ade kemahuan, di situ ade tasik maryam

pg td, cm bese, ak akn bjln kaki ke tasik maryam u jog. ni sumenyer sbb stamina y dh menurun sbb asyik skip jog. pttnyer tiap2 kene jog. bile stamina dah turun, tiap kali nk tempur ngn partner full set for 3 minute, mesti cpt pancit n penat.

dah nk smpai tasik tu, tetibe ak rase langkah kaki aku dh jd ringan. aku tgk bawah...rupe2nyer tapak kasut belah kiri dah cm nk tercabut sgt..

cmne nk jog cmni? >_<

ak pn pejam mate n cbt je terus tapak kasut tu n terduduk kt wakaf tasek tu..sbbkn ak dh tekad u jog rini, aku pun tak pk ape n mule jog.

whatever happens, aku akn bg y terbaik u dptkn gold medal 4 tempur puteri this masum 2010!

yosh!!

*mud down dh reda, dh kembali bersemangat*

lg 4 jam..

I guess...

.....i dun have to explain to you why i performed so bad during silat training this past few nights. yes, i havent jog much lately due to my foot injury that made me easily to fall and deep pain everytime i try to run. and also because i have to spend my morning hours preparing my assignments that i need to finish up before the busy days of training this week and also next week, which will be the last week before heading to ukm for competition. and my classes are mostly during evenings and i dun get to jog on the track at maryam lake which is 20min walk from my room. and at nights we have training where i have to face the guilt.

ok..im being emotional.

im tired,okay..tired of doing the same thing everyday and every night, rushing here and there everytime, having so much thing in my mind, missing chit chat and hangouts with friends. and i just need you to trust me that im doing my best! and im trying real hard not to do mistakes during practice, even to you, that im making them a lot.

down.

n to add to all that, after my training last night, i thought it was enough for the night, but suddenly my mom msg me and told me i got a warning letter from jpa (i have expected it but i wish i got it at the right time..grr)

im not giving up.never! but it just feel like i become bitter..thats all.

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these sweat and tears,

i try masking all the fears..

you'll see the breaking out of effort,

where i feel barely able to grasp the comfort.

:(

just got back from training..waiting for 20min of putting ice on my swollen parts and take a shower before i sleep. the swollen on my toe is getting better and i could run again now but not for too long. still have to depend on my friends to hitch a ride to classes and training at female sport complex (i dun own a car or a bike..and the distance is extremely far and painful for me to walk..

its been 4 days now and the swollen my knee is now getting worse. i cant even stand still for a few second and cant bend my knee too often. the cafeteria guy already know to pack me a plastic of ice every time he sees me coming up to the counter.

im not quitting..im not! but i hope these painful experience would end quickly, especially before the compettion which is about less than 2 weeks time..

im hurt...people are asleep now. Dear God, please comfort me~

hurt~

yesterday's training turned out bad when i accidentally laid face down with my right knee landed 1st and also my toe landed too fast on the floor during the drill. not only that, i also accidentally landed on my right knee 1st (again) during practice with my partner...making both my knees and toe swollen this morning..huu..

like my teammates advice me to do, i put ice on them and rub some oil before wrapping them up with bandage (thnx to my rumate for giving hers)

aaaw..miss sleepy wants to help :')

fooling around in my room..bored...usually by this time i be taking a nap after morning jog around the uni's lake before my classes in the evening...but not today. i cant even walk properly without feeling the pain from my swollen toe. trying to avoid walking too much.it hurts..

huah~

hope i can still do training..

masum is in about 2 weeks from now~

1st time kene angkt :D

smlm mlm spt mlm2 y lain, sy akn p fsc (female sport complex) u training silat. cm bese, exercise2 die sgt la extreme dn memenatkn...tp takde la smpai terkoyak seluar cm sm1 tuu..lalalaaaa~

pastu2 kaaaan, de 1 part tu...

ktrg kene partner up and coach suh angkt partner kt blkg n jln. 2nd tu kene angkt partner kt dpn n jln. 3rd tu kene angkt kt blkg tp hold on kt 1 belah kaki n tgn die jee...tak sgke sy leh angkt partner y same brt ngn saye~ woooo...n tak sgke org lain leh angkt sy gak :D tak pnh2 kwn2 sy dpt angkt (im not dat heavy, u know :P) even kak timah y berat 48kg cmtu leh angkt..gile laaa~

trime kasih pade bella krn sudi mnjadi dumbell sy since cfs lg :D

ttfn..

doakn sy tak cedera spnjg training ^_^'

It's an emotional thing

When I was in boarding school, there’s this parent-teacher meeting and reports need to be sent. There’s one report on describing the parent’s child in order for the teacher to understand how to handle them. I remembered reading what my dad wrote before passing it to my teacher..

and I saw the word ‘introvert’.

It was the first time I came across with that word..and I deny being it.
Four years later..lower back pain. Huuu…
ive have been having it periodically since last July.


I have always been the kind of person to run or hide away what im feeling till sometimes when I got depressed or angry, I cant seem to recalled what im being all emotional about. I become unconscious of having the feeling of depression or just plain bad mood and not knowing why.

‘dun think to much!’
its what my friends throughout my life has been telling me to do.
I cant seem to help myself. It’s a habit that I have failed to break since my early years. I guess the experts (which were the four doctors that I have come to see to check on my back pain) were right!
‘Back pain is an emotional thing’

Cause I’ve x-rayed my backbone, and they tell me there’s not even a slight problem there. Well…I guess it has always been in here (inside of me). All this subconscious emotion bottled up inside (even I don’t intend to) are really getting on my nerves..or should I say, my back.

I was instructed to follow up my physiotherapy for every two weeks for the coming four months. But I guess that cant solve it. These pills and rub-on medicine that they gave doesn’t help much. I know cause I have observed a lot of time how I my back pain fade..i tried taking the pills and its still there. But when I try to think over the possible stress or problem im dealing at the time, and talk it over or such..i was cured.


So how do i not be an introvert who I have been my whole life?
I dunnu..im still am.
So the pain stays.
Back there..
and in here.

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[me and my subconscious emotional back pain]

Subconscious Emotional Back Pain

Repressed subconscious thoughts and emotions are the main causes of unresolved back pain.
Medicine does not acknowledge that the emotional mind can cause physical
symptoms in the body. This is a prime perpetuator of the back pain epidemic and
the most logical reason for medical science’s poor statistics when it comes to
successful back pain treatment. More patients continue to suffer with their
severe pain than ever fully recover.

Types of Subconscious Emotionally Induced Back Pain

The actual emotions that are repressed can be powerful or seemingly
trite. Some patients have serious emotional issues often dealing with horrible
conditions such as physical or sexual abuse. Abandonment and neglect are also
common contributors to severe emotionally generated back pain. Other patients
have a back pain prone personality and are driven to experience painful symptoms
due to their own character and personal development. To these patients, even
small and seemingly insignificant emotional issues can build up, creating huge
reserves of pain inducing emotional stress.

People experience tremendous
emotional stress as part of their lives. It is the combined effects of the
extent of their stress, the amount they repress, their personality traits and
the circumstances of life that determine when and if symptoms will commence, the
length of time they will last and their severity.

Lalalaaa~

itu je mmpu ku kate dlm keadaan busy n tensen y kritikal ini..

'Allah grant me..
the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.'

insyaAllah3x..
ku bt termmpu dn terbaik y boleh.
kalo dah mmg tak smpt or tak sempurna, ku redha jelaaa...

cant wait for next week..
a week holiday at home!
hik3


salam.

Past.

baru balik dr kem kt Damai.
dlm lrt nk balik ke uia td, ku bersame due kwn baruku y same2 dr kem.
sorang dr ktrg rancak cite psl past dier.
ku hny psg telinga smbil lihat keluar..


akak ni bukan baik sgt.
jahat gak. lagi2 tersilap kwn ngn kwn2 akak dl.
tpi duk uia, tah tetibe tersedar.
insaf habis.

pastu akak try la jauhkn dr drg.
pastu sem dpn tu,
akak dpt join usrah.
bes tau usrah! uia mmg ade halaqah y wajib,y masuk kredit kn?
tp usrah ni lain. rase tarbiyah y dpt tu mmg byk ajar akak.
bla bla blaa


dalam diam,
ku tersenyum sendiri. hm2
knp?

1. sbb die stori past dier mcm dier storikn past ku.

begitulah.
cam ku kate, my past still haunts me sbb past ku teruk.
bknnye ku tak fhm ape itu erti dosa, tpi tu lah..sekali due bt salah, masih ade rase bersalah. lame2 tu, mgkn hati dah keras.
tp Alhamdulillah,
Allah bg kekuatan u ku tinggalkan sume itu.
bkn senang..
hati tersangatla sakit.
tp ape y perlu bt, perlu bt.

masuk2 sem lps,
kwnku ajak masuk usrah.
dr personal experience, seyes..mmg bes!
taktau nk describe camne.
tp ayat y ku sll dgr,
ko patut bersyukur sbb ko org y dipilih Allah.
ku sll terfkr...ape mksd tu?


2. org2 y join kem,usrah, jemaah ke pe juge manusia y tak lari dr bt silap

ku kate ni bkn nk rendah2kn drg.bukan3..
dl ku sll pk y sume org2 gini mmg sejak kecik smpai la skang mmg baik,
jadi pengaruh baik kt org, de member2 baik cam die.
cam impossible drg prnah bt salah.

ku sll rase org2 cam aku,
y pernah bt silap lg2 silap besar,
ne la layak bersame drg.
sbb ku sll rase,
kite nk suh org lain jgn buat salah,
tpi kite sendiri bt salah.
pe hal kaan?


tp hakikatnyer,
mereke juge manusia.
y punya masalah y sama.
y punya masa silam.

y bezanye,
mereke2 redha ngn mase silam y hny tggl sebagai sejarah,
mereke berusaha menebus dosa2 ngn bertaubat dn mentarbiyahkan diri,
istiqamah berusaha,
kerane mereke tau,
hidayah itu milik Allah.
hidayah diberi pade mereke y terpilih.
dn kerane hidayah y diberi,
mereke rase bertanggungjawab u mengajak orang2 lain,
menyedari kesilapan y dilakukan,
dn menyertai mereke memperjuangkan Islam.


jz my personal thought.

salam

Belajar jelaa >_<

'Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan'
[Al-Insyirah:5]

sem 1,Nov 08

mateku bengkak,
sapu tgnku basah,
kepaleku sgt pening =S

'mdm, takkan nk redo lg skali?'
'its up to u. kalau tak nak,takpe. i will jz give u n ur group fail la.'

exam nk dkt.
kls dh tkde,org sume sibuk studi.
portfolio esok, projek2 kene angkut n letak kt studio by 8pg esok.
de 1mggu je u redo model bcm.
ku sgt2 tertekan. ku cube tenangkn diri dgn tidur.

kol 4pg,ku bgn.
cpt2 ku cari prjk2 sekeliling bilik n brjln ke studio.
ku sgt tak terdaya mghadapi hari y baru.

blk bilik.
teringt arini result rayuan jpa dah klr.
saje ku check.

huh?? 0_o
'tahniah. rayuan anda berjaya'

Ya Allah....ssgghnya Kaulah pemberi nikmat selepas kesulitan
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'Apabila Kami mmberikn kesenangan kpd manusia itu......
...ia berpaling dn menjauhkn diri dr Allah
dn apabila ditimpa kesusahan.....baru ia merendah2 diri
kpd Allah dgn doa y pnjg.'
[Fussilat:51]

sem 2,Mac 09

mase kesuntukan, tggl bbrp ari lg.
final projek ku msh blm siap, dsgn tak memuaskn ati.
fkrn kusut, hati celaru.

[1 message received]
'mardhiah, ade srt dr jpa'
'oh, umi leh bukakkn. tgk psl pe.'
'dah bukak. psl amaran krn pncapaian prestasi akademik sem 1 xmemuaskn sbb dpt pointer bawah 3'

ku jd risau.. X(
y ku tau, jpa akn gantung biasiswa kalo 2sem berturut2 dpt pointer xmemuaskn.
result subjek studio kuar b4 final exam.
sgt teruk result ku, akn efek sgt pointer ku.
ku hny leh hrpkn ngn paper2 teori.
aku perlu scorekn teori.

Ya Allah...aku akn berusaha bt y terbaik dn pasrah saja lepas tu.


cuti, APRIL 09

result pun dah kuar.
3.0xx
betul2 atas pgr.
(ku tau..ku perlu tgktkn lagi. y pntg ade duiiit)
mcm tak caye sgt2!
ku kol jpa jz nk make sure.
menurut org kt situ, jpa ku takkan digantung n akn diteruskn.
insyaAllah3..
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'Jika Kami rasakan kpdnya kesenangan,
sesudah kesusahan y menimpa dirinya,
nescaya ia berkata: Telah hlg sengsara itu drpdku.
Sesungguhnya ia sgt bergembira lg sombong.
Kecuali org y sabar dn beramal soleh.
u mereka itu keampunan dn pahala y besar'
[Hud:9-11]

'best gile ko dpt jpa yeh,mar..'
ketahuilah...
aku tkt =|

tkt ku kufur nikmat,
jika ku gune duit itu u kepuasan diriku saja.
jika ku riak dgn ape y Kau berikn.

tkt ku lggr amanah,
krn duit itu duit kerajaan,
y diberi hasil dgn mggunekn kptsn studi ku (dn dgn izin Allah),
y diberi u studi ku.

tkt nikmat itu hnylah istidraj
ujianMu y berupa kesenangan
nikmat y dpt mmbtkn ku lebih jauh dr Kau.
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lepas exam history, EXAM WEEK

[kak gg] habisla aku kali ni....susah KOT paper td. huuu....
[aku] alaa...tu tak penting. y penting kite blj krn Allah
[kak wani] weh,pntg kot. ko nk biarkn pointer ko hancus ke
[aku] weeek..takde la smpai camtu. pape y jd, kalo kite blj krn Allah, kite dpt pahala tau! kalo fail, paling kurang pun repeat je. bknnye mati pun.
[kak gg] haahla...hhahha~ kalo pointer rendah pun, de sem dpn. blj jelaaa!
[kak wani] kalo fail,blj jela! ahhaa~
[kak gg] kalo repeat pun, blj jela!
[kak wani] kalo ali raza nk marah, blj jelaaa!
[aku] ait. ali raza ajar kite history 3 tau sem dpn.
[kak wani] oh..haah.....papela. blj jelaaaa!

ahhaha~~ XP
tah nape...ku kurang sikit tensen ngn exam history tu lps borak2.
like my fren had told me...
kalo fail ppr, plg krg kene repeat.
kalo fail course, plg krg kene kuar universiti.
bknye mati pun.
masih bernyawa.
bkn ke nyawa tu Allah y bagi?
takkan nk terus sedih Allah tarik sikit nikmat.
still ade nikmat nyawa tu!

mksdnye,
ko tak hlg segale2 lg n masih hidup u mncube lg!
mati itu akn dtg, tp blm lg.
selagi ajal ditangguhkan, gunela hidup sebaik2nye



salam.

2mggu cuti? Lame tuuu....

I have headaches during holidays~~
ive longed for a break from my busy life of assignments,
projects,
exams..
but i cant be at home everyday..
need to escape.




i need to travel somewhere to free my mind,
get the pressure off.
huuu....
i wish i could.

How I ended up with those baggy scarves~

[note: baggy scarf is tudung labuh.gagagaa~]


it was my 19th birthday,
my dear sweet 'umi' gave me a lovely 'tudung'.
brown colour...i likeeee~
'mayB ill wear it someday..'
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it was Wednesday morning,
i woke up late at 7.30 and realized that i was gonna be late for class which will start at 830. my groupmates n i had stayed up late till 3 smthg to finished up an assignment and prepared for a presentation. and luckily for me, they all agreed to elect me as the presenter,as always. hua3

so, i gotta look my best :P


8.00am

i had this brown baju kurung which i havent worn yet.
'ohya...match pulak ngn tudung y umi bg..wiii~'
so, i quickly put on that baju kurung and start ironing the tudung.
while ironing..
'eh..lamenye nk hbs iron.asal cm besar smcm tudung ni..? O_o'


8.10am

walking distance to kaed-15min! hueh! got another 5min tu pack my things n put on my tudung.
'huh?..tudung labuuuuh..???? >_<'
'xkn nk p kls camni...dah la kene present dpn sumorang.alamak..takde mase dah.
pasrah jelaa..huk3'


830am, LT1,kaed

'MAAAR! asal tudung ko labuh gilee?'
'eh2,mar....smpai seru dah ker?hhhaha'
'waaah...sejak bile ni,mar?'

eeeer....

seriously..
'rase cm dlm kepompong! malu gile..mane la org cm aku lyk pakai cmni..'
but my besties keep on telling me i should be proud of it n continue on wearing it.
but i admit.
it changed me.
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suddenly i felt controlled..
the way i talk, what i talk about.
i felt like that baggy scarf of mine reminds me of someone,
someone that kept on watching me,
my every move,
every word,
thought,
feeling.

then i realized, that someone is Allah.
so..i always felt that i had to do things the right way.
His way.

but,
sometimes i do feel im not suit for it.
i still have habits that doesnt go along with that piece of cloth.
i have a past full of sins that still haunts me.
im working on it.
what can i say...
people makes mistakes as we are human beings..not angels.


i like this phrase that i read..
'mungkn dsbabkan dosa2 itu..mnjadi satu momentum utk seseorg sgt dkat dgn Allah..'
insyaAllah.


i started wearing it since that day, since the day i 'accidently' wore it by mistake.
or is it really an accident?
hmm...
i have once thought (jz a thought..never took it seriously :P) of trying on 1
but ended up laughing after picturing myself in 1 of those thing.
Probably He heard my wish n granted it.

takdir.
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1 funny comment:

'mar..ko dah pakai tdg labuh ye? kirenye ko dah tak pakai seluar jeans n pakai bj labuh n kain or jubah jela yeh?'

eerr...
'persoalan di situ..'

mayB i should wait for my 20th birthday and see what umi will get for me.
ahahaah~
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this post is jz a diary for me. people change through time and i hope i remember why im wearing that cloth and still am.
insyaAllah..

post dr duck quacks? wah3...

jeng2..
mesti dah lame korang mnnti post latest ni. (prasan kejap)..
dah lame bebeno tak post bnde smpai ku dah tak tau nk tulis pasal pape..

5 mggu dah terabai blog kuu...

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dlm 5mggu ni,
emosi tak stabil,
air mate duk jatuh jer,
muke duk berkerut sll,
moody..moody...
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dlm 5mggu ni,
2 kamera hilang,
1 hp hilang,
senyuman hilang,
tak terkire brp kali semangat hilang..
sedih2..
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dlm 5mggu ni,
tido tak cukup cz kene stay up bt keje,
mase tak cukup cz asemen silih gnti diberi,
balik umah tak cukup cz sllnyer smggu/ 2mggu skali balik rumah..
busy2...
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dlm 5mggu ni,

ku dpt kamera baru...
canon powershot A1000si.
wrne coklat.
my faaaaaaaaav ^_^

ku dpt derma dr kwn2 kem n pemilik kem sri raudah.
1st time p balai polis.
1st time jd mgsa n dpt smbgn derma kilat.
terharuu...

ku dpt duckie2 dr farah u bfday...
duckie y sll terapung kt dlm bathtub tuu...
y de bunyik bile tekan..
boleh picit kalo2 tgh stress.ahahah~~

ku dpt hadiah rantai tasbih dr hjr.
tq2...de mksd tu.

ku dpt jam n byk lg brg dr mak uda ku,
tq2...mmg cheered me up laaa
^_^

ku dpt kate2,msg2,kol2 dr kwn2 y sgt3 supportive.
tq korang!
mgkn itu satu hikmah blaku sume ni...
krn ku smkn yakin n percaye kwn2 ku sgt ingin ku ok dn bersmngt.
tq tikah
tq moh
tq nik
hajar
nad
bell
nesh
razi
kwn2 seusrah
kwn2 kem Madu
n y lain2..

moga Allah mmbrkati korang..
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dlm 5mggu ni,
ku pelajari pengalaman y baru,
ku hadapi cabaran2 bertalu2,
ku terima kehilangannya..
ku cube atasi segalenye..
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itu jer..
hiiiii~~