Assalamualaikum n hope everyone having a cool holiday this CNY :)

Many things have happen to me these past 3 months..but it is settled one by one. Will tell u the stories when i get the time (n mood :P)

Tq for dropping by,readers! -2 February

Wednesday, April 15

How I ended up with those baggy scarves~

[note: baggy scarf is tudung labuh.gagagaa~]


it was my 19th birthday,
my dear sweet 'umi' gave me a lovely 'tudung'.
brown colour...i likeeee~
'mayB ill wear it someday..'
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it was Wednesday morning,
i woke up late at 7.30 and realized that i was gonna be late for class which will start at 830. my groupmates n i had stayed up late till 3 smthg to finished up an assignment and prepared for a presentation. and luckily for me, they all agreed to elect me as the presenter,as always. hua3

so, i gotta look my best :P


8.00am

i had this brown baju kurung which i havent worn yet.
'ohya...match pulak ngn tudung y umi bg..wiii~'
so, i quickly put on that baju kurung and start ironing the tudung.
while ironing..
'eh..lamenye nk hbs iron.asal cm besar smcm tudung ni..? O_o'


8.10am

walking distance to kaed-15min! hueh! got another 5min tu pack my things n put on my tudung.
'huh?..tudung labuuuuh..???? >_<'
'xkn nk p kls camni...dah la kene present dpn sumorang.alamak..takde mase dah.
pasrah jelaa..huk3'


830am, LT1,kaed

'MAAAR! asal tudung ko labuh gilee?'
'eh2,mar....smpai seru dah ker?hhhaha'
'waaah...sejak bile ni,mar?'

eeeer....

seriously..
'rase cm dlm kepompong! malu gile..mane la org cm aku lyk pakai cmni..'
but my besties keep on telling me i should be proud of it n continue on wearing it.
but i admit.
it changed me.
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suddenly i felt controlled..
the way i talk, what i talk about.
i felt like that baggy scarf of mine reminds me of someone,
someone that kept on watching me,
my every move,
every word,
thought,
feeling.

then i realized, that someone is Allah.
so..i always felt that i had to do things the right way.
His way.

but,
sometimes i do feel im not suit for it.
i still have habits that doesnt go along with that piece of cloth.
i have a past full of sins that still haunts me.
im working on it.
what can i say...
people makes mistakes as we are human beings..not angels.


i like this phrase that i read..
'mungkn dsbabkan dosa2 itu..mnjadi satu momentum utk seseorg sgt dkat dgn Allah..'
insyaAllah.


i started wearing it since that day, since the day i 'accidently' wore it by mistake.
or is it really an accident?
hmm...
i have once thought (jz a thought..never took it seriously :P) of trying on 1
but ended up laughing after picturing myself in 1 of those thing.
Probably He heard my wish n granted it.

takdir.
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1 funny comment:

'mar..ko dah pakai tdg labuh ye? kirenye ko dah tak pakai seluar jeans n pakai bj labuh n kain or jubah jela yeh?'

eerr...
'persoalan di situ..'

mayB i should wait for my 20th birthday and see what umi will get for me.
ahahaah~
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this post is jz a diary for me. people change through time and i hope i remember why im wearing that cloth and still am.
insyaAllah..

11 lovely comment:

azie said...

mardybummmm....
i feel lyke hugging u!!.. i dunno wut 2 say.. but i tink u noe wut im tinkin.. but i still wanna rite sumthin down.. wut i can say is.. im PROUD of u my dear!...
ps-hidup ini xde kebetulan.. smuanya telah drancang.. ianya menjadi kebetulan hanya kerna kita xpnah nmpk ia dtg..

Mardhiah said...

tq my dear azie :)

NajaTikaH said...

mar.

what can i say is congrates!


bkn sng tuk memulakan bnda baik.


=)


smg satu hari nnt mar akn istiqamah utk pkai tdg labuh.

sy bru stat pkai tdg labuh last year.mase 1st year 1st sem.


rasa lebih selamat n meyakinkan.
alhamdulillah.


tak dinafikan,kita manusia biasa.
bnyak dosa.

namun,bila tersedar,mohon keampuan drNya.

Dia Maha Pengampun.

n klu nak tggu seru smpai,sgt susah klu kte sendri tade inisiatif.

insyaAllah mar boleh.

=)

Mardhiah said...

yup2..
rase sgt selamat :)


tq,tikah tersayang ^_^
n tq 4 all ur advices!
tikah sll tau nk ckp pe kalo kite citekn prob.

hm2


sgt pelik kn?
kite still tak prnh jmpe.
ckp pun jrk jauh.
tp ku rase tikah sgt dkt ngn ku n sll dpt tlg ku.

hm2

insyaAllah,
sikit2 kite berubah.

nabebe said...

amin to u my fren
i'm proud of u ;)

Mardhiah said...

hey,thnks bell
:)

hope it will last

sOx said...

Terharu akuw bacew mendew nie...
Nasib baik akuw laki, kalau x akuw da nk try pakai tudung labuh nie ;p

Bagus la kalau ko dah makin dkt ngan Tuhan...
Akuw skrng mcm dah jauh gilew..
T.T

2 taun lepas..
He show me His miracle gak tapi tahan 4-5 bulan jeq..
pastu akuw "rosak" balik...
Akuw kerap kali mimpi "petunjuk" tapi hati akuw susah gak nk brubah...
Hati dah keras, hitam -_-"
But i'm trying~

Lucky for U, changed easily toward good...but make sure not to change easily for something bad~
^^

paan said...

congratz mar
aku pn byk kali pk psal bnda ni tau
aku cm pk mcmana nk jd org mcm nik, kak iz semua tu
tp aku xbersedia
bila la eh?

kak dee said...

kita semua kene usaha nak berubah
jangan ckp,'nak tunggu dapat 'hidayah' '
tak semua org akn dpt hidayah.kan?


note to myself jgk :)

Farah Fadhil said...

salam wrt, mar...
lame dah tak baca blog mar, hehehe...
somebody said to me once,"jgn pernah berputus asa dlm melakukan kebaikan..."
istiqamah is the key. =)

Mardhiah said...

sox>
ko-->pakai tdg labuh?
(try u imagine)
hahahahah~~

aku rase ko akn bt sume maknyah2 insaf n pakai tdg labuh skali
XP

oh,what miracle is that?
the dreams is it?

hey,
that proves that He still loves ya!
jz dun make Him wait 4 u too long,k ^_^
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paan>
oh,cm nik n kak is?
oh! itu aku pun jauh lg!
kite ubah sikit2 y perlu ubah.
aku pun de lg bnde nk ubah nye.

hua3..
asalkn istiqamah,
its all good!
^_^
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kakdee>
yup..
kalo kite bt slh,
Dia akn bg pntnjk.
2nd time kite bt salah y same,
Dia akn bg lg.
3rd time ulang,
takut2 Dia akn biarkn je.

oh!takutnye!
kalo tok imam masjid bg nasihat pun,
kalo dah Dia taknk bg hidayah,
tak dpt gk.

moga2 dihindari.
insyaAllah.

hidup ni sementare.
sakitnya nk berubah pun sementara.
u hidup kekal y bes,
kenela tahan sakit tu kaan...
^_^

'hidup di dunia bagai penjara bg srg mukmin, tp syurga bg org kafir'

endingnyaa?
org mukmin akn di'free'kn dr penjara tu u msk syurga

simple
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farah>
yup.
insyaAllah.

lebih baik bt amal y kecik tp istiqamah dr bt amal y berat tp sekali or kdg2 je
:)




salam

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